so Since Forever is this awesome band!
they are featured as a hometown hero in Alternative Press (AP) magazine =]
they are playing at my christmas party =]]
I'm super excited! the guys are just darlin!
Jason (the drummer) walked me and my friend to our car after a show
cause it was downtown and kinda sketchy for two 16 year old girls
to just walk out there by ourselves.
they do a cover song every sunday so that it's Since Forever Sunday =]
and they make me smile =]
Anyways so yeah the Josh thing just isnt going to work out
he finally asked me on a date so we went and saw new moon.
I like to hold hands, cuddle, kiss. i enjoy the whole physical aspect of the relationship
but i'm not like a slut about it... you know what i mean?
anyways so we go and my hand sits on that freaking cup holder the whole movie
and if you've seen it you know the whole thing with mike and jacob and yeah it was really embarassing
because that was me.
he didn't hold my hand we hugged goodnight
it just sucked
and he made some lame excuse about "sorry for not holding your hand
i thought you wanted to watch the movie"
I'm completely capable of holding hands and watching a movie at the same time
it's not that complicated.
I really think it's just cause he's really not that into me
and after that i gotta be honest i'm not that into him.
he's perfect. like he doesn't lie or cuss, he only listens to clean christian music, and i feel like he judges me
especially for the music thing.
I listen to music that cusses and i don't care. It honestly doesn't bother me
and maybe it should because i am a christian i do go to church, i would be slapped if i cussed infront of my mom
but there's just something different when you're singing along to a song and that word is out there
it's okay to say it. or atleast that's how i feel.
and I cuss when i get mad. I don't wanna be judged for that, because chances are i'll just get madder and
cuss more.
there's just so many feelings telling me this is a bad thing.
so i plan on ignoring his text messages, so it won't be a surprise when i tell
him i don't wanna continue with the whole dating thing.
hopefully.
Random Quote of the Day: "When drugs and triads are involved, you NEVER trust the Asian woman sent to seduce you" -- Taylor Easterwood of Since Forever =]