I'm a Sophomore now !

so wow I can't believe I'm a sophmore
I can't believe i'll be 17 in march
I can't beleive I'm growing up
I'm not sure if I like it or not.
I'm glad I'm getting older and getting to do more stuff sure but I mean I dont like responsibility, never have and never will.
I'm hoping to get a car soon, and I think that once i get a car a lot more stuff will make sense and I think i'll feel ready to turn 17 but right now I still feel like a little kid. I still look up to the big kids at school. I see the seniors and I feel like their so much bigger than I am, and some of them I feel like I could never really talk to them. don't get me wrong 3 of my very best friends are seniors but I feel like they're not ready to grow up either. One of them inparticular is so much like myself. we're only a year apart in age, because she's young for her grade and I'm old for mine. We say that we're twins because we are that much alike. I don't know what I'm going to do next year without her, she's already going off campus most days for lunch and it's just really hard to deal with.
We have one class together this year, thank God. I hear her talking about college and feel in some ways that I should already be there, I should be going with her, we should be rooming together. but in other ways I'm so very glad i'm not going off on my own yet. just very mixed emotions. I cant really explain it.

Random Quote of the Day: "these are not my first period babies!" -- Mrs. Thames