I shouldn't be doing this.

There is no way i should be missing school. I miss my friends terribly but i seriously just miss having a schedual, i guess i'm weird. is anyone eles like this?? does anyone like knowing what to do instead of having no idea what you are doing? I did enjoy a lovely run with tanner. I have a super small neighborhood, and the sun came out to play so he came over and we went for a run. to be honest, i didn't really think i'd like him as much as i do. but i'm very very happy. =]

Not so Random Quote of the Day: "Tanner - An amazing, determined and genuine person who deserves all the best that the world has to offer. " -- Urbandictionary.com =]

crazy mother, guitar hero and other rambles.

so my mom is crazy, she always yells at us when she can't find something of hers that she misplaced in the first place. she is constantly trying to find ways to blame everything on me and my brother. it really just bugs me. like if it was my fault i wouldn't care, or if she would apologize when she finds whatever it is in her room, or when she realizes it wasn't our fault, then i wouldn't care i could deal with that. but this is just becomming too much. even my 11 year old little brother can tell somethings up with her.

my brother got guitar hero world tour for christmas, it's intense. drums are ridiculusly harder then i thought they would be.

I'm currently dating tanner, a sweet guy who deserves a chance, and i'm giving him one. is that a bad thing? even though you've kinda been crushing on some one (Romeo) to just switch and go to another boy? but i feel like i've been in that boys shoes i know what it's like to think "just give me a shot i promise i'll be better then they were" so i'm giving him a shot. =] who knows it might be true love. or it could crash and burn. but what's life without experiences???

Random Quote of the Day: "Don't make me get my knives back out!" -- Jake -- my co-workers are a tad crazy. =] but they are normally really awesome!

workin

So i'm working tonight that guy that i was telling ya'll about, Romeo, yeah his girl cheated on him, which sucks and i truely do feel bad for him but it's awesome cuz we've been flirting all night! but then he tells me this girl that likes him asked him to the movies and he's going. why can't i get a break??? he did tell me that one of the songs i've written was really good =] so i'm happy bout that. and the girl he's going with is not pretty. which sounds mean, but i'm not a mean person it's just a fact. but i was like "ya, she's um pretty" and he was like "she's decent looking" so idk, and he told me that he thought this pic of me and my cousin was a good picture of me =] so i'm guessing that's a good thing =]
anyways i'm tired. hope everyone had a lovely holiday!

Random Quote of The day: " perfect grades didn't make no sense but now it's all cleared up" -- Holla Back Boy by Cobra Starship -- amazing song!

Undies and Socks what i Always wanted!!!

yes i got lots of undies! yay! they are super cute and from Arie only the best girlie store ever!! =] by American Eagle of course! haha! I also got a tiffiny necklace. =] and some more of nollie, my favorite perfume ever! i had used all of it up from last year lol. and loads of candy in my stocking of course. and i got The Cab's Cd which rocks! i'm like blasting it right now! I set up my brothers drum station for his Guitar Hero World Tour game. which wasn't that painful lol. my grandmother gave me $200 which is always good! I think i have enough for that digital camara now and i've got like $200 dollars saved up towards honduras this summer! (it's gonna be $1200 =0 ) and i'm very happy! i just took a lovely refreshing shower, and i'm wearing my favorite outfit ever, MY PAJAMAS!! gosh i'm happy! can you tell??? what did you guys git for christmas?!?! or hannakah or kwanza and i probably spelt both of thoes wrong but that's cuz i'm seriously a terrible speller! anyways off to alabama for more presents! lol

Random Quote of the Day: "Christmas the only time where we sit around a dead tree and eat out of our socks" -- i have no idea it came off of a flair on facebook! =]

Gosh I miss my dad on night's like this.

I miss my daddy lots
I miss him singing to me.
I miss him doing elvis impersonations
I miss him playing the piano on my knee when a song came on the radio
i miss him pretending not to like my bands when he really did like most of them
I miss him reading to me.
I miss him being able to pick me up from places when mom can't
I miss sitting on his lap
I miss crying to him about stupid boys
I miss his guidance
I miss his opions
I miss his thoughts
I miss him twirling that little piece of hair on the back of his head
I miss his hugs
I miss him holding me
I miss just talking to him about nothing
I miss hearing about his high school years
I miss the look he would of had on his face when vandy won there 6th game and became bowl elligible,
I miss going to work with him
I miss him yelling at me when i did something wrong
I miss him telling me goodnight
I miss high fiving him while watching vandy games
I miss him judging me and my cousins diving competitions.
I just miss my dad.
Cherish your family this Christmas.
Everything can change so fast.
Don't ever take the littlest things forgranted
In Memory of Trent Merrit, My amazing Daddy
My Hero
=]

Random Quote of the day: "i'm going to ask her to marry me, even though she doesn't belive in love, he's determinded to call her bluff, who could deny these butterflies" -- Remembering Sunday by All Time Low

new hair.

it's wayy early, but i'm going to get my hair done, it's going to be a light brown with blonde high lights and low lights, i'm a little worried about it, but i trust sara, she has awesome tatts. and who wouldn't trust someone with awesome tatts? besides she's the one who finally got rid of my mom's 80's hair and she got big props for that! =] haha anyway gots to go get ready! =]]

Random Quote Of the day "it rains in your bedroom everything is wrong" -- Taylor Swift's Forever and Always -- i'm not in school so there won't be very funny quotes, mostly just things from my favorite songs. =]

Sush Girl Shut you lips, do the hellen Keller and talk with your hips.

great song in the title lol. I've done nothing but listen to music for the past 3 days. and i've loved it! but now i have to go face the real world, yuck. why can't i live in music land for the rest of my life?

Not so Random Quote of the day: "don't make this easy i want you to mean it, Jasey, say you'll mean it." -- Jasey Rae by All time Low, the acoustic version is the best =]

ho ho hopefully

incase you didn't know the title of this blog is a song by The Maine, they are pretty much amazing. =] I really am quite content with life right now. This guy i know... let's call him romeo (cliche i know but there's a story behind it lol) I work with him. He has a girlfriend. And his girlfriend is really awesome! she likes all the same stuff i like. including her boyfriend. I really don't like that i like him, he's cute and really awesome ... i wrote a song about him, i feel like an idiot. and if he did break up with his gf, and then by some miracle was interested in me, i would date him, but i would feel bad about it, and idk how you could be friends with your boyfriends ex. if by some long shot that would even happen. =/

Random Quote of the day: "so kiss me goodbye" -- snakes on a plane by cobra starship

Christmas sparkles!

so i generally think christmas decorations are retarded. all they cause is a mess. you have to get, God knows, how many boxes out of storage and if your mom is like mine you have tissue/ news paper all over the house because we just have to have a different set of dishes for christmas. and then after all the hard work of getting everything out and putting everything up, it doesn't really serve much purpose besides looing at it. like our railing on our stairs has green crap and ribbion all over it, you can' even use it as a rail anymore. it's kinda pointless. I will NEVER understand the point of christmas decorations. ... my children are going to be very deprived kids, they will have santa and stuff i'm not a completely horrible person, they will have the excitement that comes with waking up on christmas morning and if they're lucky they will have a tree and stockings, but that's where i draw the line. and a tree is pushing it. i mean whose bright idea was it to cut down a tree outside and pull it in the house? but they will never have lights outside, santa and raindeer figurines all over the house, or different plates for christmas. because i won't be the one to decorate. is that horrible of me?

Random Quote of the day: "lipstick has a way of leaving more then just a mark on my sheets, coloring my senses cherry red atleast for this week." -- Alex Gaskarth -- All time low's song that girls a straight up hustler. =]

Today was an AWESOME day!!!!!!!!!!!

so i got the hard copy of all time low's ep, put up or shut up! which was awesome! like i had it on itunes but i didn't know they sold it in stores lol! and my brother bought me, so wrong it's right, because i'm a retard and just hadn't bought the cd yet, again i have it on itunes but not the actual cd. and i wanna help the record companys out u know with everyone downloading stuff and no one buying actual cds lol
but then ... MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD GOT ME JONAS BROTHERS TICKETS!!!!!!! and this is the second time she's taking me to a concert! so yes i love her! we've been insperable since i was 4 and she was 2 and we'll be that way forever! she's diffently my unbiologial sister! and the best one ever at that! anyway now i'm off to learn some rap music so i can impress this guy with my knowledge lol =]]

Random Quote of the Day: "kung foo fighting wooden spoon hamster!" -- Caroline =]

oops!

my bad forgot the random quote of the day! ahh what kind of a random person am i by forgetting the random quote!!! =[

"Big nose, click click click, and enough makeup to cover a mule" -- Kyle bout a certain teacher who shall remain nameless for obvious reasons *cough* mom's the *cough *cough* principal *cough* and she would *cough* kill me *cough* *cough* -- i just wrote cough so many times i'm starting to think i spelled it wrong? lol knowning me and my spelling i probably did

exams = blaahhhh brain

Exams have driven me crazy!
i have tried to make an acurate spanish study guide and now have 250+ words written on several sheets of paper and i'm am no where near done. I got an 80 on my Bible exam which mom isn't going to be happy about, yes everyone makes better grades then me but everyone eles was cheating on that exam! i know people have been making cheat sheets and writing on their hands. it's really just not fair. and really i haven't been able to do anything except study. I have one more exam to do and then 3 weeks off! yippeee!!!

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

okay so as soon as i find out the jonas brothers are having a concert in nashville i find out that they are sold out. and a big fat *SIGH*

Random Quote of the Day "you ungrateful little screw" -- Dakotah

pssshhh yeah right

This was fun but i highly doubt i'll get kissed at all under the mistletoe ... or anywhere eles for that matter =/

Random Quote of the Day: "I'm team edward... but i'm also team taylor!" -- me
"how does that work?" -- Susie

Snowish day

So we're not out today. but we don't have to go to school till 10 =] and more then likely within the next hour they'll cancel or atleast i'm hoping that's what they'll do because there's black ice everywhere! and it's 31 degrees with clouds which means that it's not going to melt. =] and they should consider all the young teens driving to school and not make them drive in the ice, which is virually impossible anyways. but even if we're not out all day i'm still not going cuz i'm sick as a dog =[ it stinks but it's nice to look out the window and see snow =]

Random Quote of the Day: "What's wrong with disco Christmas music?" -- Jerry

I should

Be excited I should be happy. there is about 4 inches of snow on the ground before january and we'll more then likely be out of school. but i'm not. wanna guess why?

yep you got it. My mother. She yells and screams at me and slaps me (it doesn't hurt cuz my mom's a whimp) and thinks i'm going to hell, that i'm going to do drugs and smoke and drink and get pregnant. well she's wrong. I might be like her cousin who did all of the above( except going to hell that's God's descion not mine) and she even overdosed on drugs bout 2 months ago and died. but i'm not her cousin. I'm not. I refuse to be. I have something her cousin did not. I have a great church and my faith in God is still weak but at the same time it's stronger than it's ever been. I don't understand why she can't see that. And she treats my brother soooo much better then me it's ridiculus! like he was yelling at me bout the stupid remote and so she comes in the living room and decides she's going to get all up in my face and slap me??? Seriously she's messed up. and yes it's usually over stupid things like that. Yes I'm strong willed, yes i'm stuborn, but i'm not going to be her cousin. thoes things don't apeal to me at all. So do i want to go to school, no, but i don't want to be in a house with her all day eaither, what is there to be happy about?

Random Quote of the Day: "Santa is not a pimp!" -- me -- my little brother was talking about a lego santa ornament we had, and said it was pimp lol

Mickey D's and other tid bits

so i'm taking macdonalds to class tomorrow, which i'm sure the cute sr boys will love haha. =] alas if it was only them i liked ... i'm not going into that drama today though lol not again, but i'm kinda ticked at my mom what eles is new?
it's cold and wet. it's always that way here, i don't get it. Why can't it atleast be sunny, like i know it's winter and it's going to be cold but it could atleast be sunny. =[

Random Quote of the day: "but i'm not going to turn back into a pumpkin" -- Susie -- after me telling her she was like cinderella for having a midnight curfew lol

What to do?

When your in love with your best friend?
Which i am.
We talk all the time.
We tried going out last november and it just didn't work, but we've both grown and over come lots of obstacles, and grown a lot as people. We have the type of relationship where he'll txt me late at night just asking if i can talk, which normally means to call him, so i will and we'll talk into the early morning. I know he's always going to be there for me. But, he's been very confused about his sexuality recently, and he's told me several times that he doesn't want to be gay or bi, he wants to be straight. Mostly because that's what his faith teaches, that's what his family accepts, personally i would still be his friend if he was gay, i would still probably be in love with him if he was too. This whole thing pretty much sucks. Did i mention it's been going on since the 6th grade? i'm now a freshmen in highschool. I'm so scared. I think i would go insane if i didn't have him as a friend, but that kills me cuz we can't be more then that. Gosh this whole thing is so darn confusing! and yeah i did stay up till 11:11 tonight, i'm crazy for him. I've thought about telling him to just ask a girl out to just get his parents off his case, because like i said they don't aprove. and then also it sucks butt because i'm thinking why don't you just date me! because i could understand! i could help you through this ! but no... this whole situation just sucks butt.

Random Quote of the Day: "haha my plan is working!" -- sarah -- my evil but charming friend. hahah

this looked like fun! =] but i couldn't decide which band i would do, so i might do another one later haha

1. Choose a band / artist and answer ONLY in titles of their songs:
Hit the Lights

2. Are you male or female:
Her Eyes Say Yes, But The Restraining Order Says No

3. Describe yourself:
Say What You Wanna Say

4. How do some people feel about you:
It's All the Rage

5. How do you feel about yourself:
These Backs Are Made for Stabbing

6. Describe your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend:
Body Bag

7. Describe your imaginary boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse:
Tell Me Where You Are

8. Describe where you want to be:
Sincerely Yours


9. Describe how you live:
Hangs 'Em High


10. Describe how you love:
Don't Wait


11. What would you ask for if you had just one wish:
On And On


12. Share a few words of Wisdom:
The Call Out (You Are the Dishes)"


13. Now say goodbye:
Save Your Breath


Yes they are my favorite band ever! i might do this with some other band or singer later idk. it was kinda fun but you would have no idea what i was talking about for more of the questions haha

not so Random Quote of the day: "tell me again how we're so easily forgetable so formulaic and way too simple to be at all oridginal yeah so we've heard it's time to keep your mouth shut while we show you how to rock n roll" -- Hit the lights-- you are the dishes

Work Drama!

okay so basically the girl i worked with tonight had a stalker. And her boyfriend who also works at the store thought she was trying to flirt with him, and want him to be obsessed with her, (STUPID BOY!!) like the stalker was going to come to the store so she called him and basically told him that if he came she was going to call the cops. Then her BF basically broke up with her, and she bawled. then he called back saying he didn't break up with her that it was just a misunderstanding, but that he was still pissed. (IDIOT!) this is not the first time drama has happened between the two at work, while i was there. so yeah it was quite a night. oh and btw no the stalker did not come and ya the BF is still Pissed or he was when i left work and hour ago. =/ oh well. Personally since like it's more then likely going to work out, and the stalker told her he was sorry and would stay away from her and that he didn't mean to cause trouble, i find it kind of amusing. is that bad of me?

Also if you are still reading please comment. i used to have a few readers and i got a few comments and that really excited me and just made my day. so please make yourself known! =] haha anyways, it's time for bed so till the next time i find to write, tata!

Random Quote of the Day: "I'm going to hang it up in my locker right now" -- Stephon -- i made him a little name sign thing and he liked it! =] haha

2nd Christmas

So this is the 2nd Christmas without my dad. It's been harder then i though it would be. I don't remember even how i handled last years christmas, i tend to block out and forget hard memories. Songs in particular are hard for me. When i was little and Dad would sing winter wonderland. When he got to the "in the meadow we can build a snow man, and pretend that he is parson brown" part, I, being the smart kid i was, responded by laughing and saying "No daddy! snowmen are white!" He loved it and would replace brown with all sorts of colors. When i got older and he would replace it with purple or some other color i would correct him and tell him it was suppose to be brown. I can't belive i'm tearing up as i type this. I always cry when i hear that song. Dad would always sing Christmas songs, any songs, I cry pretty much anytime a Christmas song plays in the car. Which is pretty much every time i'm in the car because my mom who knows Christmas music makes me cry, insists on playing it ALL the time! You think she would b a little more sensitive. But no. She still plays the stupid Christmas music. I don't understand.

Random Quote of the day "Word of advice, don't pry into things you couldn't possibly understand" -- some bad guy on fringe =] i love that show!