Love and the whole crazy thing.

So today was a movie and book day for me, that's all i did was read and watch movies. I've read and seen lots of people find "true love". and part of me is content in that. Part of me is very happy to see all thoes people find happiness. But the other part is completely and totally depressed, these two make for a very confused me. I found an old crush of mine's jacket, i'm wearing it now. I haven't seen him in a coupple of months. We used to be really close friends, but that's all it ever was, super close friends, the kinda friend that you borrow a jacket from and you always mean to give it back, but then you find it in your closet 3 years later. =/ So i txted him, maybe we'll get together and go do something, i really don't know. What i do know and i've made my mind up about is I'm not going to let guys tell me that they like me but they're not ready for a relationship. I'm tired of waiting for guys. Make the move or move on because i'm a very good person. I've come to the conclusion that i am going to try my hardest not to be self concious (yes i know i didn't spell that right) I'm pretty, I would be a great girlfriend to somebody, but i shouldn't have to wait for that somebody. I'm not really sure if i'm writing this because the guy i was "talkin" to hasn't txted me for a while and hardly says anything to me at school, or if i'm serious, but i think i'm serious. I'm ready for something more and i'm willing to stop waiting for it, and to go look for it. maybe this is God's way of getting me to finally step up and be a big girl. =]

Random Quote of the Day: "I loved Conrad Parker Smith in the second grade. I loved him to the point where I used to hid in the bushes near the swing set on the playground at school and when he'd go running by, I'd jump out and pull him down and give him a great big kiss on his cheek. He didn't seem to really mind, but he never kissed me back. I used to give up my turn on the swing so Conrad could ride just a little bit longer or my place in the lunch line so he'd ba able to get some french fries bfore they ran out. I wasn't sure he even noticed me at all. Didn't even know if he knew my name. He had all kinds of girls chasing him around the playground." -- Jessie Lou-- from Deep Down Popular by Phoebe Stone - the cutest puppy love story of all time! =]]